I’ve been told, and believe it or not, I’ve been told that I work too hard. I see it in the way I’m so physically active and on top of things. I also see it in the way I feel. I feel like I’m working too hard and too hard can ultimately lead to burnout. I’ve worked too hard for too long and I’m tired of it, but I’m not going to let it get me down.
Burnout is one of the most common signs of exhaustion. It’s a condition in which your body becomes physically depleted instead of mentally depleted, in which your energy level is low, and your mood is low. There are many things, like stress and tension, that can cause burnout, but in my experience burnout can be caused by the work itself and the constant struggle with making it all work.
Burnout is usually caused by the constant struggle with making work go well, but in mine it seems to result from a lack of sleep. You see, Ive never slept more than a few hours a night and Im usually up at five and ready to go to bed at eight. I can’t sleep for more than a few hours at a time anymore. I feel like I’m going to pass out at any moment.
In fact, Ive found that its not the sleep that causes burnout, its what I do after hours when I finally fall asleep. Im so tired that I dont even notice how much time has passed since I last slept. The reason I sleep so little is because Im not a night owl. I like to sleep at 10:30pm, and I like to sleep as much as possible. When I do sleep, I like to go from light to dark as slowly as possible.
I love the idea that you can go from light to dark in 60 seconds with no problem. I’ve tried it, but in practice its hard to get the feel of all the dark parts. I tend to spend most of my sleep watching TV and scrolling through Facebook.
After some time though, you start to experience what I’ve been doing all my life. You start to feel like you’re missing out, and that you’re in a constant state of transition. It’s like you’re on a roller coaster you can’t control, and you’re getting off at the wrong stop.
In my case, the transition is not from one mode of existence to another, but from one mental state to another. I am in a constant state of flux. I feel like I am constantly changing, and it feels as though I am in a constant state of transition.
This is a real shame, as you probably already know. Its the same thing that people who feel like they never do it are trying to do. Their bodies are a long way from being the same one they want to be, and they have to be. Being in a constant state of flux seems like the most logical thing to do, but also the most important thing.
I think I am in a constant state of flux, but I’m not really sure how to describe it. Its like I have a constant energy and enthusiasm to do things, but I would rather not have to do them. Its a bit like my brain is going through another mental transition, and I’m doing something else instead of what I want to do. I would like to change that, for my own sanity.
The fact that you have to constantly change gears is one of the many things that makes you uncomfortable. But as much as you want to do something, you just can’t. Some people are born that way. I’m a bit of a freak, and this constant flux is one of the things I dislike about myself. I’ve always been a bit of a hypochondriac. But it’s also a bit of a blessing.
